My Mission

Alright!

here's the thing
I'm turning 23 this year , and i felt tat i gotta really make a move and make things right this time, before its too late!
and the issue is my WEIGHT!
pass few few weeks i'v been craving and eating a lot which got me out of my lead.
so as for now i'm gonna control my cravings for GOOD! yeah diet & exercise as well!
Shall consume lots of green tea & water ! not overly but enough to flush my system!
Other den that i gotta sleep early hopefully before 12am if possible. haha
I'm giving myself a target to achieve by the end of each week.. and mission i shall achieve to fulfill my own happiness for my own self." YOU JUST GOTTA LEARN TO LOVE YOURSELF"

oh btw, i've got like 3 weeks till finals so much to be done and more to come!
that's bout it for now! and alright i shall try to keep an update of each day of the mission =)

till den!
I BELIEVE IN U <3
wish me luck!

with love
Shan

i feel so lost right now!

LOST!!!
this is crappy!
why after so damn long i waited for sumone...
and now yes there is sumone...
and if im going to leave aussie for good den .. it's all gonna be so damnn sad!!
AHH sumoen pls tell me wat to do!
i feel so wrong, so lost, so confused!!!

needs some love
xoxo
shan

Whatever it takes!

OMFG!!!
talking bout going aboard to study!
a friend of mine just reminded me about the full body check up which i had to go through while i apply to Aussie!
i'm so worried now!
i so so so need to work things out
caz ....
i'm bloody running out of time if i'm going abroad
i only have 2 freaking months left!!!
so so need to watch my diet and get into shape within this few weeks!
I GOT TO!!
okay i'm gonna tell myself that i can!

oh well, i shall take whatever circumstances i have to go through to work it out!
till den thats all for now..
i'm back to my assignments

peace out !
xoxo
shan

Sydney anyone?!

it been a while ..

been doing some thinking lately

bout my future & studies of course

well...

i've always wanted to further my studies

where at?!

YES AUSSIE!!

now just hope i can really go for good!

thinking of transferring to Raffles Sydney next sem which is in July

yeah i know its pretty soon but i dont mind..

its time for me to explore more while i can..

i'm turning 23 this year i aint a lil girl no more

would be good to learn to be a independent for now..

oh well, i hope all things goes well..

well thats all for hoping !!

but i really am looking forward for a

BIG CHANGE !

A GOOD CHANGE !

as for now i gotta work harder this sem..

been too much of slacking around and wasting my precious time =(

other den that, i've gotta find out more bout transferring

and

YES MONEY is AN ISSUE for the parents!

shall try to persuade them =)

thats all for now

more updates soon i hope

till den

xoxo

shan

loved always <3

it must have been love

Lay a whisper on my pillow

Leave the winter on the ground

I wake up lonely, is there a silence

In the bedroom and all around

Touch me now, I close my eyes

And dream away...

It must have been love, but it's over now

It must have been good, but I lost it somehow

It must have been love, but it's over now

From the moment we touched till the time had run out

Make believing we're together

That I'm sheltered by your heart

But in and outside I turn to water

Like a teardrop in your palm

And it's a hard winter's day

I dream away...

It must have been love, but it's over now

It was all that I wanted, now I'm living without

It must have been love, but it's over now

It's where the water flows, it's where the wind blows

It must have been love, but it's over now

It must have been good, but I lost it somehow

It must have been love, but it's over now

From the moment we touched till the time had run out

" sometimes it can hurt so much , its been so long yet i can never find my self over u.. its like the moment lasts forever and all i ever wanted was just you "

here comes the tiger! I say: " prepare to fight! "

yes yes yes

i know i never kept my promises bout updating my blog

and yes yes its been a while.. seems like ages =P

but oh well, i'm sorta in the mood for it now XD

the thing about blogging ... it never seems to hit me like other crazy ass bloggers

they can go on day by day perhaps forever blogging bout their daily life.. which i dun really see a point unless like people like me ? u? which are so eager aka "8" to know whats going on with thier daily life... such as shopping? girl/boy gossips? family probs? travel? relationship matters and so on... like think about it ,its funny how the world spins and how from blogging u practically live ur live IN IT!

but oh well with all said, its human nature i suppose

different people have different behavior, different attitude & different perspective with life !

so shall they be!

a friend of mine asked me : What would u do when your unhappy?

i answered : i never liked keeping the unhappiness within me, i always try to find someone who understand me well and just express my thoughts ... sometimes letting those feelings out u'll feel much better.. i always believed being ego will never led u to where u wanna be, we gotta be humble caz life is just to precious to hide yourself from fear .

maybe u'll agree with me maybe u wont ... there's no wrong or right to anything its who we are who makes us different from each other =)

till then , CNY is a few days ahead ,HAPPY SPENDING ppl !

wish me luck!

blaaaaa...
just a short update..
so yeah...
been so busy as usual never ending work loads ...
and yeah! EXAM WEEK is coming up!
i've got 3 modules to cover!
and i'v got so much undone ... sighh
well people do wish me luck!!
i hope i'll do fine for my papers
alrite te
back to my studying now
ARGHHH!!!
theory theory theory!!

*trying to fit as much as i can into my head & hope it stays till its all over*

loved

♥

shan

(ps : i miss u :p)

i miss u

sorry people i've been really busy lately
feeling guilty for not having the xtra time ...
well..i've got tonz to blog about but not today
this one is gonna be short..
as i am


missing u a lot!!
u've put up a smile on my face today knowing tat u miss me too =)
cant wait till u get back dou...
its been so long since i last saw u
well deep down inside no matter how far we are apart my feeling for u will never change
we just got to be patient for now

hugs & kisses


dearly loved

♥

shan

unspoken words...

have u ever felt so caught up with your feeling?
for the 1st time i felt it was so wrong...
and it kept me going thinking bout it the whole entire day...
sometime i really wonder...its funny this could happen ...so unexpected..
oh well..
as for now i know the outcomes of it...
probably? perhaps?
move on i shall...
anyway its getting late
sighhh...

nitez people...




always loved

♥

shan

mondays...

again...
it's the beginning of the week...
i never like Mondays...
but surprisingly today there was no Monday bad jams!!! =)
so reached college in bout 15 mins...which normally with jam it takes me at least 35 mins..

Monday morning class...it was
Colour Theory class By Joseph
what else!!! another new assignment....sighhh
this time its sketching either a mobile phone or a Sports Car...
i decide to sketch a car....which is way more cool den a phone...
so wat came first on my mind was this....


"Maserati Gran Turismo MC Sport in White"


OMG!!!! i'm so in love with this car now...
just tat day at Bangsar i just saw sum guy driving this...it was like ahhhh!!! O.O
yeahh...anyway...lol
here is a few pics on my outline sketches ...

u must be thinking why the hack is Shan sketching a car rite?!
ya i also dun get it why out of all the things it must be car....
sometimes i feel Joseph really think we just sit home do nothing like were so effing free!!
ishhhh screw it la wat the hack!!
after sketching the outline den we have to add the element of design which is lines ,shapes,mass & den followed by colours...like abstract designs
the shitty part is i have to sketch as many as i can ,at least 4 different designs....which means 2 different views for each design....
seriously WTF!!
den i got like 4 more other assignments due in 2 weeks...STRESS!!
just wish everything will be done and over soon!! cant wait for holidays!!

welll...
some random pic from today in college...


me & Lisa

Edwin & Charlie


alrite..
that about it for today...
peace out =)


loved


♥


shan

shopping =)

i'm so suppose to be doing my sketching now...
oh whatever la!!

SUNDAY!!!

so... as not planed...
Collin & i
went shopping @ 1u !!
YAY!!
had lunch at the Garden..
checked out pull and bear & forever 21 ...nothing much i liked
so went over to ZARA!!!

OMG!!!
i tryed on this really cool Blazer with a lil Glam Rock feel!!
seriously i'm so in love with it!!
and it fitted well on me !!
BUT it was freaking closed to RM400!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
Collin was : "like either u take it or u leave it!!" >_<
MONEY MONEY MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but anyway... at least i got my self this
a white off shoulder top with a lil black dye touch & studs on it....
i find it pretty cool!! yes? no?
hummm cant really see from the pic..but still i love it =)

Anyway...Collin also got him self a pair of really nice fitting white slim fit pants
but sadly i left my camera at home so din get a snap of his handsome face =P
hahhahaha...sorry collin
k la
so...
thats bout it ...
till den
more shopping coming up !

stay tuned =)



loved


♥

shan

always....a part of me

its been long since i last saw u...
your smile
your touch
your everything
sighhh...
just really missing u now...
u always knew me well..
i can never stop thinking bout those days...
the moments we had...
we'r distance so far apart now...
but deep down inside i know how much u mean to me...
as day passes by...
just hope ur doing fine...
take good care...
i'll always be here when u need me..





dearly loved

♥

shan

captures...

YES !!
CLUB MONACO & JUICY COUTURE
WAREHOUSE SALE!!!

out of the curiosity
so i & my 2 bf
alby & collin
decided to go check it out
but sadly
it was still price-cy after discount
so din really get anything
instead we walked around the row's of Telawi shops
surprisingly i was a good girl today din get any cloths
but instead i got my self 2 new head bands
i have a feeling i'm getting obsess with those really fancy head bands =D
went to this shop where there was like
so so so so so so so
many range of sun glasses
really fancy yet price-cy once
i spotted a 'Prada' one that i really like ...which cost bout 1k!!!
YES 1k!!
OMFG!!!
i wish i had the money!!
Alby stopped so many which he couldn't decide which to get
there was like
Emporio Armani
Porsche
GUCCI
Ray Ban
hummm
and many many more la...


after a day of walking
couldn't bare with the humid weather anymore
den headed to
Marmalade
for coffee!!

Banana Cheese Cake

Iced Cappuccino


nice settings =)
.....


took some random pictures on the way back home

alby and i

nice shots eh?!

so that's about it for my friday...
AHHHH!!!
tomorrow tomorrow
i guess i just got to stay home for the weekend to finish up my assignments ...




with love

♥

shan

thrusday...

As the morning usual

woke up early for class...
same old routine ....
wat i dislike the most is morning traffic jam's...
wat can i say...KL traffic sucks big time!!



"Textile class" by Derek
this is one class i can just sit there and day dream ...
wonder why?!
firstly the class is so big there's bout 40 over students,
he lectures as if his talking to him self,
basically he just reads through the notes which he already given out
and
his very British accent which every time i have to get myself to try to understand
so yeah...
i must say the class is very quite most of the time caz who ever makes or speaks den tat's it GONE CASE!!
we'll just miss out what he last said....
conclusion is Derek's class makes me go sleepyzzz!!!

this is Yawn...just look at her face ...see wat i mean?!

here are some random pic during break in class


me and amanda =)



Amanda....lookin like a nurse aint she?

i look cacated ...dont i ?!

spotted!!! William who was wearing the same colour as i =D


....


After class
meet up with

Wilson !!! this is Lisa's pet bro


and Kenneth...future designer? Maybe?!


went over to Pavilion for lunch
checked out sum stores
den chill at Starbucks before heading home






oh yea!! FIY...it was still a freaking hot afternoon!!!
till den for now



loved

♥

shan

feeling the heat!

IT's BURNING HOT!!!!!!

OMFG!!!!
The weather is really giving headache,cant bare with it anymore...
its been like this pass few week.
Sometime i really wished it would snow here in Malaysia.
I rather enjoy the coldness rather then this burning hot weather!!...
wont u agree with me?! arghhh!!
Further more,Stress is back haunting me down!!
I've got tonz of assignments & my final Fashion Merchandising project!!!
Thinking bout it makes feel so pressured!!
sighh...wat to do just have to be done with it!!
I'm just hoping everything will be alrite!!
I dont wanna fail !!! AND HELL NO !! I SHALL NOT FAIL!!!
Shall think positive and have the sprit that i can do this!!
I LOVE MY ASSIGNMENTS!!!
YES I DO!!
till den for now =)


dearly loved as always

♥

shan

picking up thoes footsteps

Hey people!

It's been a while,i'm here again appearing with my own new blog...
"shan cherie"
For whom who's reading this and which whom barely knows who i am
"Shan" as in my middle name as what my friends call me and as "Cherie "means dear/sweetheart in french... its sounds kindda catchy,don't u think so? ShanCherie!
Oh well,lets put it this way perhaps a brand new start for me?!...why not rite?!
Lots had happen for the pass 5 months..as life in just unpredictable...each laughter or sadness is just another phrase in life . So keep it up people...
what ever u may come across just bare with it and
stay strong !!!



dearly loved

♥

shan.shan